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One Part plus One Part equals More than Enough

24 Sunday Nov 2013

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Dear Friends,

This painting has to do with my intention to more fully integrate my physical body with my soul/mind/spirit.  I was inspired by the idea of two interlocking circles, where the overlap is in the shape of a mandorla, or vesica piscis, a shape that has had many meanings over the centuries.  It’s “where it’s at,” however you might define “it”.  In my mandorla sits the rose, symbolic of the unfolding mystery of life, as it is living itself out within who I am.  The swirling tree in both sides of me connotes growth, and the tree is rooted in the river, the river of life.  The colors of both sides are represented in the other side, as each side actually started out the other color.  There is no real separation within us.

The heart shape, symbolizing love and acceptance, is repeated in both the body and in the shape of the hands.

On my shoulders are a magpie and an alligator.  Every time I go out of the house, and most any time I look out a window, I see first a magpie.  For me, they remind me that there is more to life than the mundane, as they, with crows and ravens, have often signified the spiritual dimension.  Magpies also remind me to use my voice.

The alligator, an animal that has not shown up in my psyche before, came to me in a dream the night I set my intention for the painting.  I dreamed of two boys each leading an alligator as one would lead a dog.  One boy was very young, maybe 4-6 years old, and his alligator was young, in great health, and very magnificent.  The other boy was maybe 10-12, but his alligator seemed very old, tired, lacklustre, and listless.  The word “listless” seemed very, very important in the dream.  At first I didn’t want to look at the second alligator, but when I finally did, I found that it looked as though it had survived a “great something.”  It looked as though it had been through a lot, but was S.S., as Dr. Estes would say, “still standing.”  I found myself really admiring that alligator.  In the dream I realized that “listless” was a pun:  that it really meant for me “list-less,” as in, “without a list.”  Those of you who have known me for awhile know that I have lived by my many lists of things to do, things I might do, people to call, posts to write, etc.  I sensed strongly that I need to be “list-less” for at least awhile.

After playing with the dream for awhile, I realize that I am the older alligator, having been through some great somethings, yet still standing.  And that my psyche was telling me to be “list-less” at least for awhile.  The dream was profound, and as I looked up some symbolisms for alligator, I found that as reptiles, alligators rely on their environments to keep them healthy and energetic —- if it is too hot or too cold, reptiles cannot regulate their body temperature and are at risk.  I, too, have become exquisitely sensitive to whatever environment I am in.

Alligators are also, among reptiles, unusual mothers in that they help their young hatch from the eggs, then carry them in their mouths down to the water, and stay with them for several months.  They are associated with the Great Mother.  For the past 18 years, my primary identity and self-understanding has been as mother — perhaps, too, an unusual mother in many ways.

I chose to represent the alligator in a pose reminiscent of the ouroboros, a snake biting its own tail, symbolic of many things, but primarily that of full circle completion: wholeness.  It also symbolizes one who has incorporated its opposite, or shadow.  Both meanings are ones I would like to incorporate into myself, and both grow out of my intention to more fully unite with my physicality.

And the waning moon, so beautiful, refers to my life now where more years are behind me than in front of me.  It is a beautiful time of life, as are all the times of our lives, as are all the phases of the moon.

Part of the reason I’ve gone into this rather detailed explanation of the painting is that I wanted to give an example of how I work with symbolism, dreams, and intentions while painting.  I find it especially interesting how dreams are often a commentary from the greater psyche on whatever it is that we’re occupied with on a conscious level.

I also want to highlight that besides image, symbolism, dream, and intention, I have also added “word” by way of the poem that accompanies this painting.  (See https://catcharissage.com/2013/11/13/a-new-poem/)

Do you work with your dreams in image or word?  What kinds of symbolism do you find personally meaningful?

May you be blessed in ways immediately recognizable and truly useful, and with love,

Cat

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A new poem

13 Wednesday Nov 2013

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Dear Friends,

The painting is almost finished, and I want to share the piece I wrote that it inspired:

O Wonder of all that is

How marvelous that there is something rather than nothing.

All that is, moves, interpenetrates.

Where is there to go, but right here?

What is more important than to attend to this,

this conscious materiality within me, in front of me?

My opening to this universe, this “one turning,” is my dear body.

Dear body, though, is often literally a pain.

My opening to all that is runs through a material tired, worn.

My material:  my matter, from Latin ‘mater’.  Mother.

Mother of my self, my soul,

may my soul be mother of my self, my matter – – – 

And it is.

It’s not that the soul is in the body.

The body is within the soul.

Any my soul moves within yours, in compassion, ‘suffering with’

just as the molecules of my exhaling

are taken into your materiality 

in the next breath.

Watch!  Attend to this!

How much of my materiality has taken in the pain around me?

Plenty.

And I take myself within the arms that have taken in so many, so much.

What do I ache for?

For this, for all of this.

I want to know in every moment of consciousness 

how inseparable my materiality is with whoever “me” is.

And know that I contain multititudes,

And magnitudes, of love.

 

Much warmth to you,

Cat

Good News/Bad News

06 Wednesday Nov 2013

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Dear Friends,

I had x-rays last week.  I have a lot of pain in my lower back, outer hips and bum that feels different from the fibromyalgia.  Good news:  my hip joints are fine.  Bad news:  my lower back shows severe arthritis, so much so that some of the vertebrae are bone on bone.  No wonder it hurts, eh?  There are also tons of nerves and tendons that connect all around there.  Since the arthritis contributes to soft tissues being irritated and inflamed, this is probably causing the other pain I have in outer hips and bum. (A little fibromyalgic humor:  You know you have fibromyalgia when you’re actually glad when the doctors find something wrong with you on an x-ray.)

There isn’t much to be done.  I’m already taking what medications would be prescribed.  They replace hip joints, but not lower backs.  Exercise as I can tolerate.  (Check.)  It would be great to lose weight, but with taking insulin for diabetes, even with a perfect diet it’s difficult to not gain weight, much less lose it.  Glucosamine makes my blood sugar higher, which if I started it again would mean more insulin, which might lead to further weight gain. I felt I was left with “I’m sorry, you’re all wore out, go home and live with it.”  I’ve been bummed out.  Feeling damned if I do, damned if I don’t.  Feeling like how I feel today might be the best I feel for the rest of my life.  And I’m not feeling so hot today.

From a depth dimension point of view, though, what is fascinating about this are the synchronicities of this with my current painting, and with some of my recent dreams.  A few days before I got the x-rays done, I started a new painting on the theme of Alchemical Marriage. It is about bringing opposites together into a new transformative mix that leads to something that is not yet apparent.  What or whom do I want to be united with in a transformative union?  What came to me strongly is that I need to pay more attention on a minute by minute basis to how I’m feeling in my body.  Do I need to sit, stretch, or walk?  Should I carry on through the pain?  This is a tricky business, as distraction is one healthy way of dealing with chronic pain.  Yet I know that I separate myself from my bodily perceptions more than is best for the long term. (see The Catch 22 of Chronic Pain)

My practice is to set an intention for a painting before I do anything else with the canvas.  This time, the alchemical marriage is to be about uniting my care of mind/spirit with care of body. Above is my work in progress:  a mandorla of gold interlocking two unusually shaped parts of me.  It’s not finished yet, but I wanted to highlight a work in progress. It was after I started painting that I got the good news/bad news.

The night I began the painting, I had a dream about my health that featured an old listless alligator, but that is a subject for the next post.

What an interesting juxtaposition of intention and events. Not exactly sure what that means I’m supposed to do next, but I do see that something is going on that can be quite meaningful for me.

Thanks for reading,

Cat

from Rilke: I love the dark hours of my being

03 Sunday Nov 2013

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Listening for Visions

I love the dark hours of my being.

My mind deepens into them.

There I can find, as in old letters,

the days of my life, already lived,

and held like a legend, and understood.

Then knowing comes:  I can open

to another life that’s wide and timeless.

—Rainer Maria Rilke, The Book of Hours I,5

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